Be still my heart – When life comes at you fast!

I’ve got so much change coming at me, my brain is buzzing.
I remember a time when nothing happened. It lasted about seven years. I kept trying to make changes—get a new job, move to a different city—and I was stuck.

Then I met the boyfriend (the last one), moved to Florida, and had stepchildren–briefly—and they weren’t really stepchildren, they were his children; I was just there. What would you call me to them? I guess their dad’s girlfriend.

Anyway, that was a short three-year stint, then more change—it seems to come in fits and starts.

I’ve been back from Florida since 2019, living in Pittsburgh, PA.
I’ve gone through the pandemic, moved twice, bought a house, lost a house (well, it never closed), lost my mom, my son moved away, that son got married, his wife and he are now pregnant, and they’re moving back. And additional changes with my other son too. (All good!)

One of my best friends, with whom I’ve spent most of my time this past year, is moving away just as my son and his pregnant wife are moving back.

I mean, I’m not even listing all the changes here because, well, just because. It’s a lot, though.

I like to act like I welcome change, that I love it, that it’s so exciting.
So I find myself wondering why I have a pit in my stomach, a tear now and then, and a feeling like I’m going to burst.

It’s all good—I mean really good—except for the friend moving. But even that, it’s a dream of hers and so exciting to see it transpire for her.

I mean talk about manifesting. She is the queen. She has a thought and it unfolds. Badda bing badda boom.

I don’t think my thoughts work the same way.
I feel like my changes come at me, more than I manifest them.

I have dreams (as you all know), and I feel like I’m known for living in my head. But I’m feeling like this next chapter is coming at me—and I’m being thrown into it. Instead of stepping into it.

Am I making any sense? Do I ever make sense?

I am by no means complaining; I’m just rambling, as I am wont to do on here, and sharing what’s going on with me.

And although I’m saying there’s a lot going on, there really isn’t anything going on with me. It’s all in my head. It’s all other people making moves.

I am still in my same apartment, still going to the same work—nothing has changed, physically, yet, but everything around me is changing. And being a grandmother, well that is a brand new change I have never experienced. So I can’t even wrap my head around it yet.

I do wonder:

By the time the moves are made and people are in their places, the comings and goings actually happen, will my head and my heart and my geographical location catch up to it all?

Or will I find myself sitting here watching everyone else change while I keep doing the same ole same ole?

Interesting times for sure! Here’s the question I came up with for the Universe:

Dear Universe, what is the story I’m living through right now—and how do I find my place in its unfolding?

It may feel like this is happening to you, but you are an integral part of all of it. You are in the center of it for a reason. It feels like it’s happening to you, but all of life happens for you.

This is across the board, applicable to all. All life experiences happen for you, not to you, but it is how you perceive them that makes a difference to you.

You can feel blindsided—in your case, this has been a positive experience—but not everyone feels positivity when blindsided.

You think you aren’t manifesting, but have you not been asking for pure Joy? For an excellent life? To be awestruck? Have you not been awestruck? Are you not experiencing unimagined joy and wonder?

Isn’t the Universe the most fun at how it comes up with the most fantastic ways to surprise you and answer your prayers? Life isn’t happening to you. God is answering your prayers. Life is happening for you, with you.

You have a major role to play. You are central to events transpiring—both with family and friends coming and going.

When you, anyone, feels like life is happening to them, look again—and know life is happening for you. In your circumstance, it’s fun and exciting, but not all of life is fun and exciting. And those times are also meant for you.

Nothing happens to you. Life is a lesson, an experience to live.

Your place in the unfolding of life is to enjoy it and to keep in perspective: it’s all experience! We would suggest that your place is to do exactly what you always do—go with the flow.

See what tomorrow brings because, honestly, you have no idea what might happen next. What wondrous unfolding could besot you tomorrow?

You can make plans, but remember God’s good humor. He (not a he) loves a twisty tale.

Practice your grounding exercises (meditation, stretching, eating well!) and welcome the moments as they unfold. This is life!

xoxox

I love when these messages unscramble my brain and remind me how perfect life really is. Ain’t life grand?

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