Believe it or not: a Time of Celebration

I am tired. Not the kind of tired that sleep fixes, but like an emotionally spent tired. Something feels broken—or off kilter. I’ve been faithfully holding my tongue for two years, maintaining my composure, being professional, but now I’m not. I’m searching for my equilibrium, but at work, my heart (and mouth) clench like I’m bracing for impact. Everywhere else? I’m calm. I’m grounded. I’m even getting better sleep overall, despite the usual sleep battles that come with being a woman over 50.

But that job of mine… it’s the exception. I feel like that toy airplane with the rubber band wound too tight, where you keep twisting it tighter and tighter. And maybe that metaphor isn’t so bad— if unwinding sets me free, then maybe this tension is the prelude to flight.

You’d think the emotional unloading I did last week would have cleared the air. And in some ways, it did—I was proud of myself for speaking up, for letting the truth spill out instead of swallowing it down. But here I am, still teetering at the edge. I thought I’d be steady again by now. I’m not. And this concerns me.

Yesterday, I told my friend Jean about the blow-up. We laughed so hard we nearly peed our pants. I was describing myself like some wild-eyed truth-teller on a rampage, and it felt good to laugh. I was ridiculously brave. But also… who was that?

Then Jean shared the story with her husband, and his implied reaction: “She should be fired.” That kinda caught me by surprise. Jean saw a friend cracking open. He saw an employee crossing a line. And honestly? They’re both right. From where they stand, each perspective makes sense.

But I’m not sure I like his employer view. Was I wrong to speak my mind? Or was it the swearing? Or maybe it’s the idea that someone in my position shouldn’t have opinions that disrupt the status quo. It doesn’t really matter now—it’s done. And while I don’t fully disagree with him, what unsettles me most is that I can’t seem to regain my composure. That tells me something deeper is at play.

I think it’s time. Time to go. Not just for my sake, but for theirs. It’s not fair to stay in a space where resentment is palpable. I don’t want people tiptoeing around me.  That’s so not me.  I’ve always been known to be the calm one. The one that stays when everyone else quits. That’s who I am. Or maybe that’s who I was.

Maybe I need to fire myself. Maybe that’s the most honest thing I can do.

This week, I’ve been drawn to podcasts and writings that echo what I’m feeling, there are no coincidences right? Regena Garrepy said it plainly: “The energy in the collective is heavy—anger, frustration, grief, righteousness, destruction.”  So, yay! It’s not just me? That makes me feel a little better. If it’s all of us (or a lot of us) simmering, then does that confirm it’s not me? Is it something bigger?

Rachel Lang’s astrology guidance landed in my inbox with additional confirmation: “The two weeks between eclipses are often the most intense—a pressure cooker that asks us to make big decisions.” Pressure cooker. That’s me. That’s this moment. That’s the rubber band, the tipping point on the verge of the unraveling again, unraveling more.

But here’s the part that gives me hope: Rachel Lang’s horoscope advice says that for those of us feeling the need for change, the answer will come. Not through force. Not through grasping. But through grace. “Wait,” she says. “The direction will appear. It will fall into your lap.”

A familiar message: When you don’t know what to do, do nothing. Wait. Let it come to you.

So since this has been a few weeks of following my own advice I’m waiting.  I’m listening. I’m hoping to unwind in a steady and respectful manner. I want the flying free ending but I don’t want it to be explosive. I’m excited to see what happens next. Rachel Lang says it’ll be quick. I hope she’s right.

But wait, this is my “Ask the Universe” blog, is it not?  So let me ask the Universe.

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Q. What is happening in the collective right now? Are we living inside a pressure cooker of consciousness? The tension is obvious in global events—but is it showing up in our everyday lives? Or am I just trying to justify what is going on with me?

A. And just when you thought you could sit back and relax – boom – another hiccup. Or is it? It’s not a hiccup, it’s a turning point in the global consciousness.

Politically – worldwide – humanity has been complacent.  Confidently going on with your lives while others “run” the world. But that model is not sustainable for a consciousness heading towards sovereignty. For that is where the trajectory lies at this point in time.  If you are alive on Earth at this/these moments in time, you have signed up, rather enthusiastically, to play your part in this glorious transition.

Not feeling glorious?  Think again.

Politically, you have been puppets.  A group of one or a few decides to go to war (for example). Often it is one person who decides this, then the rest of the government justifies the one decision for primarily ego-centric considerations.  Never taking into consideration the tens of thousands on the ground fighting these senseless, baseless wars decided by one.  Does this sound like an enlightened society when the tens of thousands just fall into line?  Does this sound like sovereignty to you?  It does not sound or behave like sovereignty to the higher consciousness vibrations.  The higher vibration where consciousness is headed.

So, what better way to overcome this affliction, this living-in-denial affliction, this lazy “let someone else take care of it” affliction than bringing it all to a head?  We have used the pimple analogy many times in your writings, and it applies perfectly here to all and to you personally. The infection builds and comes to a head, and it’s painful, and then it pops.  It dissipates and is relieved.  Not that there won’t be possible scars but the infection must come up for it to come out.

All of these hidden agendas, hidden truths are coming to light, are making themselves known and seen.  And this is to “shock” you awake – to be responsive.  To stop being led – to stop feeling like it doesn’t affect you.  You can keep the TV off and not doom scroll, but the consciousness shift is still going to affect you.  You will still be woken up.  Yes, we see it – we see the word.

The endgame here is collective sovereignty.  In the world, your country, your cities, your jobs, your persons.  When you speak your mind, when you say “enough” from the depth of your being, you are raising your vibration – you are shedding the layer of denial of forgetfulness.  You are remembering who you are.  A powerful person with an opinion.

So the opinions differ, you ask?  That is right.  Is there a right opinion and a wrong one? That’s tricky, a tricky question.  There are higher vibrations and lower vibrations.  You could call one right and one wrong.  And it is true that the goal of consciousness at this time is to raise, for the good of the planet and humanity.  So a higher level response, you could say, is right.  However, without the lower level irritations, you would not discover the higher level within. So you can not judge, and actually, you should thank those souls who are playing their part of the irritant – of the fly in the ointment – they are playing their parts well.  Once you have truly gained enlightenment, you will understand the sacrifice they have made to help humanity wake up, to become enlightened, to remember you are a powerful being from and of Source.

You will find your voice.  And as you are learning, once you find it, it’s impossible to hide it away again.  Once you see the light, your soul will not let you go back to darkness.  From a workplace situation to a political uprising.  Keep chipping away at your voice.  Let the situations arise, let your reaction be one of strength and sovereignty within yourself.  Let your sovereignty spread like wildfire.

Some of these scenarios are playing out in the wider public arena.  Such as Charlie Kirk – he was a beacon of awakening, one way or another. A true opportunity to find your voice in response to his opinions.  Also on the larger stage are the blatant attempts at quieting voices, i.e., Stephen Colbert, Jimmy Kimmel, and the like, who are being punished for speaking their minds. Or the attempts at quieting women’s voices by taking away their rights.

These are the “old” ways hanging on to dear life. Your colleague at work has been getting away with her ways for years, but when does it stop? When is there a proper uprising in the collective and say “Stop” – that’s enough now.

You all have voices.  Everyone has a voice. At some point or another, you will have to use your voice and be heard to give your soul a chance to come up. Look forward to those opportunities; this is where we are in humanity.  This is the way of the world.  Celebrate your growth.  Celebrate taking a stand.  Celebrate saying “no more”.  Celebrate saying, “You’re not the boss of me. I am the boss of me.”

xoxo

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AI Summary

You are not alone in this pressure. What may feel like personal unraveling is, in truth, part of a global awakening. The tension, the emotional volatility, the sense of being stretched too thin—it’s not just happening inside one person. It’s happening across humanity.

We are living inside a pressure cooker of consciousness. The heat is rising not to destroy us, but to transform us. Systems built on complacency, hierarchy, and silence are cracking open. Whether in politics, workplaces, relationships, or our own inner landscapes, the old ways are being exposed. The infection is coming to a head. And yes, it’s messy. But it’s also necessary.

This is the moment we remember: we are sovereign beings. We are not here to be puppets of outdated structures or passive observers of injustice. We are here to speak, to feel, to rise. And when one voice trembles into truth, it gives permission for others to do the same.

So if you’ve felt like you’re unraveling, know this: you’re not breaking down—you’re breaking open. You’re shedding the skin of silence. You’re stepping into the vibration of remembrance. And once you’ve found your voice, it cannot be buried again.

This is the work of the collective now:

• To honor the irritants as catalysts
• To thank the friction for revealing our fire
• To celebrate the moment we say, “No more. I am the boss of me.”

Let this be your invitation. Let this be your uprising. Let this be your flight.

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